Saturday, April 14, 2012

Number 4

three years ago, i quit my full time job teaching high school. i miss my job. (sometimes) i miss having a job. (sometimes) but this post isn't going to go down the rabbit hole of juggling career with the other roles we play. . .

most of all, i miss the other teachers. my favorite people in the whole world: teachers. funny. real. a bit crazy. in my last position, i shared an office with about 20 other teachers. we were all in there before school and after. awesome people. 

a few months after nathaniel died, i learned that a counselor from that school had a baby in the NICU. after a harrowing battle and two surgeries, he died.

yesterday, i learned that one of my favorite fellow teachers in the world lost a baby to HELLP in January. 22 weeks gestation. 

another teacher friend of mine had a baby a few weeks ago. she was born early, but not too early, and they thought she would make it. but she didn't. she died yesterday. i just found out. 

i shared an office with the last two losses. that's four infant losses that i know of in less than a year from a fairly small pool of humans. 

what kind of world is this?


  1. Oh, God, Suzanne. I'm so, so sorry. For those families and their babies, and you. Crazy and terrible. I don't understand it.

    Teachers are some of my favorite people, too. Sending love to all of you, my friend. xoxo

  2. Oh I just don't know. I've been asking myself that very question for the past three and a half years as I see more families join us here and I am no closer to an answer than when I first started.

    I'm so sorry to hear that so many of your former colleagues have lost sons or daughters. It does seem very hard to believe that there could be so many in such a relatively small group, just awful and so very sad.

  3. Wow! That is horrible. I only know one person in real life who's child has died and it was 7 years ago. Have you been able to communicate with these families? I'm just so sorry. That last clip- it's so true.

    1. Oh, Renel. I wrote this post before I read your last post about the number three. Sheesh. Anyway, I'm so tickled for you. I suspected that something was up - there was something in the universe that had changed for the better. I'm glad that your heart has multiplied again. . .xoxoxo

  4. I have no idea... I wish there was a rhyme or reason, but there just isn't. My heart goes out to those poor, poor parents who sadly join our ranks.

  5. Its always so heartbreaking to hear of others who have to join us in loss.xo to all of them.

  6. Suzanne, The fist in the stomach pain of hearing about new losses never ceases to amaze me.

  7. My heart goes out those families.. Before Liam I didnt know anyone who lost a child and now I know much too many.

  8. Oh, those poor sweet babies and their families. My heart goes out to them. I'm still shocked every time a baby dies - is that strange? I guess not. How could a person ever get used to such an idea?